Sunday, November 22, 2009

Is It Possible For A Child To Leave Footprints On The Ceiling...?

...because I think Bethany did yesterday!

Picture the scene: The girls know something is going to happen as we've had to turn down several party invites and a dancing show. We've assured them it's something exciting but they seem dubious - well you would too if you'd said "No," to parties!

Mid afternoon we announce that we are taking them to see the Chuckle Brothers in pantomime. We have watched nothing but Chuckle Brother's pantomime DVD's for several weeks and they have helped get Bethany through the frustration of being ill. Cue Bethany being so excited that I think those footprints on the ceiling are hers! Oh my goodness, she ran from room to room, whooping and shrieking, jumping and screaming with the biggest grin on her face. And after the last few weeks (see previous post) we all needed this to cheer us up.

I started getting the girls ready. We'd already painted their finger and toe nails earlier in the week. They put their party outfits on and I did their party hairstyles. The final touch was glitter body spray. *Warning: only use glitter body spray if you are prepared for your whole house to be covered in glitter for weeks!!* You can't see it in these photos but, trust me, the were very sparkly kids!


We set off in the rain but nothing could dampen our spirits. We arrived in plenty of time, waaaay too early and took our time exploring the theatre, waiting for our friends to arrive. We bought Chuckle Brother's memorabilia (we've got enough to last a life time, I think our contribution alone will be enough for the brothers to go on holiday!) and went for a drink while we waited. The girls excitedly looked round and when we sat down for a drink they explored the outside world through the windows splashed with sparkly rain.

At 4.30pm we waited in the foyer for our friends to arrive and, thankfully we found a couple of chairs for the girls to sit on. You can see how tired Bethany is in this photo, she's been mostly pale and lethargic for weeks now but that grin never left her face. Eloise, well, she's bonkers, as you can see! I think she may have also been slightly excited, what do you think?!

We all met up in the theatre and eventually got our seats sorted out. The kids were bouncing about and making various noises that excited children make!

The adults had chance for a bit of a natter and catch up then *drum roll* the room goes dark and the theatre goes quiet.

Oooh, the anticipation...
and then...
the pantomime starts, the crowd goes wild, the kids scream and whoop, and the magic begins.

"It's behind you!"

"Ghost, there, behind you!"
"Sing the cream cake song!"
"Oooh... ahhhh..."

I kept leaning forward to watch the girls faces. Eloise was fascinated and concentrating hard. Bethany was in fits of laughter and more vocal than I've ever seen her at any performance. She was leaning so far forward and pointing to warn the performers about ghosts and ghoulies that I had to ask her to sit back because she was in danger of tickling the people 2 rows in front!
During the interval the children all entertained each other and, despite all the adults agreeing we wouldn't, we got suckered into buying sweets for the children. I had tears in my eyes as I watched the girls enjoy themselves.

*drum roll*

It gets dark again, much shuffling ensues as children desperately try to get to their seats before they miss anything and off we go again... Oh yes we did...

At the end of the show we all dashed out to the front as the Chuckle Brothers were going to be signing autographs in the foyer. We were lucky enough to be first and I managed to get a photo of them with the girls. We seemed to wait forever and Bethany was in pain and feeling cranky as we stood there. But look at her face as she got to stand next to the Chuckle Brothers! Both the girls think it's wonderful that they met them and we now have a signed poster to put up in their bedroom.

We finished off the evening with group hugs outside the theatre before our friends and us all headed home in opposite directions. We had a wonderful night and I can't remember when I last saw the girls so full of excitement and happiness, it was positively oozing out of them.

Today Bethany is tired and cranky and, perhaps pessimistically, we wait for the next symptoms to arrive. Her conjunctivitis is back and she looks to have a cold sore - although she's never had one before so we'll have to have that checked out. How much more can her immune system take? I am amazed (and ecstatic) that her liver numbers are holding up but I am worried that we will be seeing Christmas or the New Year in hospital. It's amazing to think that she's managed so many months of being stable and all of a sudden her immune system is being hit hard, over and over. We have many special events planned over the Christmas period so here's hoping we don't miss any through ill health.

Let the Christmas Season and all the merriment begin!

Saturday, November 21, 2009

Things To Be Grateful For...

Smiles!

Bethany has not been well at all recently. You can read more about it on her Caringbridge website. She has missed special events, had various symptoms of 3 different infections (which we now believe are all symptoms of the same umbrella infection), has been in hospital twice, has missed a lot of school and has generally felt tired, cranky and emotional. And who can blame her?

I have been increasingly feeling like our world is dictated by medical needs, emergency hospital stays, blood tests, nasty symptoms, unreliability, emotional outbursts, lethargy and all that jazz. I've wanted to write an update for a while but there just isn't enough hours in the day (I'm writing this at 2.30am). I am trying to organise elements of our Christmas_Extravaganza to raise money for the Sick_Children's_Trust. I am getting behind with household jobs, stressed about how I am going to manage to complete them with a child (or two) constantly with me and I haven't even had chance to think about Christmas.

Bethany had a horrendous day yesterday. We had liver clinic in the morning followed by another appointment straight after that. Our plan was to get through the appointments and have some girly time, shopping and eating out. It didn't quite go that way. Apparently Bethany didn't have any blood with her! The liver clinic includes blood tests to check various levels that are important to liver patients, especially her immunosuppressant level as it is such a delicate balancing act between keeping well and not rejecting her transplanted liver. No matter how much they tried, the phlebotomists could not get any blood. They were doing a great job, they hit veins, Bethany just wasn't bleeding. She didn't need a plaster for one of the attempts because it didn't even bleed when they pulled the needle out of her hand. Eventually, 3 hours later, 4 bloods tests and a lot of screaming, sweat and distress later, they managed to get enough blood for the tests that needed to be done. It was a traumatic morning - for me as well as Bethany. It's one of the cruellest things in the world, to have to hold your screaming child down while someone sticks a needle in her. If the circumstances were different it would be abuse! And yet, we have to do this routinely every couple of weeks (or every couple of days recently). It's not just to keep her in the best of health, it's to keep her alive, a necessary evil and we all breathe a sign of relief each time it's over. Bethany is usually a little superstar, she doesn't want distraction, in fact she'll tell you off if you try to distract her! She knows which vein she wants you to go for (and she's always right) and she wants to watch. Then she gets a plaster and a sticker and is proud of herself for being so brave. But she's had so many blood tests recently, with having had recurring infections and being inpatient, that she has become much less tolerant. I long for the day when she feels more confident about them again and goes back to telling them which vein to use and checking that they are doing it correctly, giving the staff stickers because she thinks they did a good job and generally being a cheeky money instead of curling up on the bed or in a chair and holding her hand, whimpering. She is a brave and strong girl, I know it wont be long before she bounces back. In the meantime my heart will continue to ache for what she has to go through to stay alive.

Today she showed signs of conjunctivitis yet again. She has been ill for 6 weeks now, it started with sickness and diarrhoea that she caught at school, then she had conjunctivitis which developed on the same day as she had dental surgery, can she not catch a break?! That appeared to clear up but then came back again. Then she had a UTI which landed her in hospital on IV antibiotics. Again, this infection appeared to clear up then came back a week later. Now she's got the conjunctivitis again. It turns out that she has a virus that takes months to go away in immune suppressed patients and can cause recurring infections all that time. Her little body is struggling to fight anything off now, it doesn't get over one set of symtoms before she starts with another one. Right now she has been off school for approx 6 weeks, apart from a few days where she went back before she came down with the next set of symptoms.

On top of the conjunctivitis which developed today we also found out that the most important blood test didn't produce a result because the blood clotted in the vial. So guess who has to endure yet another blood test on Tuesday?

So basically, it's been a crummy few weeks for Bethany and for all of us as a family. In and out of hospital, disturbed sleep patterns, family split between 2 locations, children missing sleeping in the same room and giggling together, painful symptoms, work getting put back more and more.

Then, this evening I got an email from someone who is starting out on the liver journey. It brought me to tears and reminded me just how much we went through when Bethany was a baby. All those times that we couldn't see a future for her, when we were afraid to sleep because we might miss something important, when we were afraid to go out and couldn't have friends in the house because Bethany was terrified of everyone, when she had severe rickets, when she had surgery to insert a line in her main artery right next to her heart because a canula couldn't cope with the huge amount of drugs she needed to stay alive, when we got a phone call saying we had to drop everything and get to the hospital because her last set of blood tests were dire and she needed immediate treatment, when we longed for days where the biggest complication we would have to deal with would be an infection. And here we are. And how amazing. We... are... here. We... are... here.

Things to be grateful for... no matter how delicate Bethany's health is, no matter how many hospital stays we have to endure, no matter how many times we take the girls out to make up for the hideous blood test/procedure/infection we've all just dealt with, no matter how many tears we shed for what Bethany has been through and what lays ahead... these are the days we prayed for when she was a baby. These are the days we daren't imagine in case they didn't come true. These days. We are here and we are dancing in the rain, we are not moping because we are getting wet, we are dancing in the puddles and looking at the rainbows.

Saturday, October 31, 2009

I Made A Promise...

...and here are the photos I promised, complete with some bonus ones.
This is my little actress, Eloise, about to set off to dancing competitions. She's such a ham! She's in a dance called Ugly Duckling, as you can see by the costume. On the same day she put some packaging on her hair and thought it was hilarious because we said it looked like the world's biggest bun net!

Earlier this month Eloise was awarded George for doing something outstanding in her class at school. Of course we had to treat him and show him the wonders of our favourite places. So we took him to the National Coal Mining Museum, met John the train driver, went to Asda for our tea (oh yes, we know how to show a puppet a good time!) and took him to our mountain to show him the sunset.

The girls got new winter coats and couldn't stop posing in them. I think they like them, what do you think?!

Bethany took a ballet rosette exam. She loves being pampered when she has an exam or competiton, having her hair and make up done.

During the half term holiday Ethan came to visit us with Danielle and we took them to the ice cream parlour and the fair in town. They all loved the rides and Bethany went on the big Sizzler ride for the first time. Pre-transplant it would have been too dangerous to her health.

Never work with children or animals... there's always one who spoils the shot! lol

Bethany and Eloise modelling their new High School Musical pyjamas.

During the half term holidays we went back to the mining museum and met up with John. He is a superstar and always treats the girls like princesses. They were allowed to drive the train again. We always joke that he can retire any time he wants because the girls are now proficient in the job!

We went the the mining museum and watched a pantomime performed by Pocket Panto. We enjoyed it so much that we went back the next day and watched it again. On the second day we sat on the front row and took Pops with us. What he didn't know was that the day before we had tipped them off that we were returning and that they were welcome to mercilessly torment him! Bwahahaha, they did! During the audience participation Bethany was called up to join in a dance. She was sooooooo excited about being able to go up to the front and perform. I think I might know what she is going to be when she grows up! She thought it was fantastic when Sarah, the main character, made a big fuss of Bethany doing a curtsey. Bethany announced, "I'm a dancer." It was such a great moment for her, to be able to shine like that and be the strong one for once. Even more so when you consider that she has been so ill recently and had her energy zapped (see her caringbridge site for more info) and the day after this she had dental surgery under general anasthetic and caught conjunctivitis. She so needed this special day (and the one with Ethan and Danielle) which helped make the holiday special instead of just being a week of being sick.

Due to Bethany feeling so rough after her surgery we had some stay at home days. We fitted in all sorts of activities in between rests and medication. They made some drawings to go in special picture frames for their bedroom and made pumpkin lanterns for the first time ever - thanks to John who bought them both a pumpkin. Today they are dressed as a witch and a pumpkin, anyone would think it was hallowe'en!

And here are your bonus photos, from earlier this month. They are amongst my favourites so I wanted to share them with you.

Hope you have a good weekend and have lots of photo moments of your own.

Thursday, October 29, 2009

Quote Of The Day...

Eloise: Mummy, don't tell Daddy but you are in charge!

Tuesday, October 20, 2009

Raising Money and Where Did The Summer Go?

We've been especially busy recently, hence my lack of blog. I have a few photos that I will share when I get time to download them. Tony and I have been working on some great ideas for raising more money for the Sick Children's Trust. One of those is our annual Christmas_Lights_Extrvaganza which we have held for a few years now and this year promises to be bigger and better than ever. Everyone is welcome but if you can't make it on the day you can always make a donation through the website and we will post photos after the event.


I've just updated Bethany's Caringbridge site about her recent health. We have the school holidays coming up so hopefully I will get chance to update a little more with lots of happy days out once we get past the holidays. Although I often wonder where the time goes - the girls are now in school full time. Bethany does have regular appointments which keeps the diary full but I've never had so much time on my hands yet I've never been so busy. How did that happen? I'm beginning to wonder if someone is stealing my hours when I am not looking!

I'm going to try to update more regularly but for now, don't forget to make a donation to Christmas_In_Thornhill and wait in anticipation for the photos I will post soon! :D

Tuesday, September 29, 2009

Contents of a book bag...

Bethany got out her book from her book bag today and we checked for school letters. We found...

1. a book
2. a notebook for us to report her reading
3. a ball
4. several drawings
5. a leaf
6. a feather
7. several little flowers in bits
8. pretend credit cards and...
9. a teacher's wage slip!!

Should we rename her magpie?!

Wednesday, September 23, 2009

#savejess

Do you use twitter? There is a huge campaign going on at the moment. Add #savejess to all of your tweets and RT as much as you can. Many celebrities are joining in.
These are some of the many who are taking up the cause...Vernon Kay, David Baddiel, Phil Jupitus, Fred Durst, Jay Link, Banksy, Jonathon Ross, Amber Benson, Mike Scott, Jenson Button, RedJustRed, Rosiana Halse, Josi Picoult, MTVUK, Matt Horne, Anne Barbano, Tom Brogan, Mitch Ben...s, Pete Bennett, Tom Cox, Oli Barrett, Diversity, Sarah Brown, Sarah Cawood, Bill Bailey, Bradley and Cath Wiggins, Beverly Knight, Jeni Falconer, Jason Haskall, Matt Locke. You could be part of that...


Inspired by Pete, here's my edible #savejess effort... When you consider that one of the reasons Bethany was desperate for a liver transplant was bleeding and clotting issues it's rather ironic that I had to get a photograph quickly because the letters were bleeding into the cheesecake!


Save Jess

http://www.savejess.org.uk/

What more can I say...

Tuesday, September 22, 2009

Conversations With Littlies

On the way home from dancing we happened to have the radio on and the news came on. A news item about a murder was announced. It made the girls sit up and listen and we had a conversation about why people murder. The end of it made me chuckle...

Eloise: Mummy, has that person gone to jail?
Me: Yes, they'll be in jail for a long time.
Eloise: Why are they in jail?
Me: Because they've been naughty.
Eloise: Does that mean they have to sit there and think about what they have done?

Can you tell what we say to the girls if they get time out? Well, I guess prison is an adult version of time out to a child (and slightly more severe)!

Confidence...

I have a lack of confidence in the available advice at our local hospital. What do you think......?!

I asked the desk for direction to the phlebotomists over and over but it refused to reply!

Tuesday, September 15, 2009

Jesus and Genes

Earlier today I had a conversation with Bethany. We discussed God and Jesus and I explained that Jesus is God's son. "But Daddy says Jesus IS God," replied Bethany. Isn't it all confusing for little children. I explained it the best I could. Then we moved on to Bethany and Eloise being my daughters. I explained that they are my daughters but also they are a part of me and Daddy because they have our genes. Bethany replied, "Does that mean that when you were little you wore these clothes for school?"

Out of the mouths of babes, eh? So then we had another conversation discussing the difference between genes and jeans!

Monday, September 14, 2009

Red Fruit...

Shouldn't red fruit come with a warning?!!

Sunday, September 13, 2009

Eloise's Turn To Shine


Eloise is now officially a solo artist! She started private lessons at dancing class 3 weeks ago because she has been picked out as talented by the teachers and they want her to have a solo at the dancing competitions. Eloise is enthusiastic about having her own dance and so the private lessons began. In only 3 weeks she has learned a whole routine and is already improving her skills.

Sometimes life is all about blood tests, results, medicine, pain, lack of sleep, the list goes on. And in all of that list Eloise often finds herself in the background while we focus on Bethany out of necessity. It's wonderful to be able to give Eloise such positive attention and finally she is in the limelight. She has a great attitude, is looking forward to competing because she wants to perform on stage, not because she wants a medal. I can't wait to see her on stage. I know several of the dancing mums will be sat on the front row crying along with me. So if you see me jumping up an down with tears in my eyes in October you know what's happened!

I leave you with a montage of our summer holidays. :)

View this montage created at One True Media
Summer Hols '09

Thursday, August 27, 2009

Bethany's Health Update

Bethany had liver clinic today. It all went well, she had fun playing with the toys and it was lovely to have a relaxed appointment as she is doing well liver-wise. But I didn't get long to relax, we got a call from the hospital tonight to admit her. You can read about it here.

Wednesday, August 26, 2009

August Fun and Frustration

We've had a fabulous August filled with outings, get togethers, photo opportunities (naturally!) and lots of fun. Our motto has been 'use every day to the full as you don't know what tomorrow brings.' I know I have mentioned some of these outings before (and I'm losing track so I might not have mentioned as many as I thought, lol) but I have edited some photos so here's the proper update. We met up with Sarah and William at the National Railway Museum in York for a photo op. Sarah is writing a blog about a photography project she is working on called Gifts Of Life to raise awareness of organ donation. She is a fantastic photographer and I was exicted to see what shots she would take as well as looking forward to meeting her and William. William is a little smasher, he had a transplant a few months before Bethany and it was great to see the two of them click. Eloise, poor thing, was a little bit left out but William did his best to offer them both hugs and make them equal. They bonded over a booklet about trains (to know William is to know trains!) which probably helped. As you can see, William is very interested in food. It's a shame he's not as interested in eating it! :)Wouldn't you like to know what they are looking at?!William, the gentleman, hugged and kissed the girls before we parted company and called out "I love you," as we walked away. Bless him, I wanted to take him home. Sarah, you know where we are, we are always happy to accept large parcels with airholes!

The next outing was to the Special Kids in the UK family day. Now I know I have already blogged about this day because it's the same day that I look the quad bike video clip and photo. But it was such a good day it's worth blogging about it twice! We met up with a wonderful group of people, from all walks of life, all social levels, all ages, all different personalities. The one thing we all have in common is special children. And it creates such a strong bond, it really does. I stood watching the crowd for a while, marvelling at how a group of people from all over the country could instantly gel in such a feel good way. All the children bonded and looked after each other even though they were all very different - maybe because they were all very different. Bethany chose a lad as her boyfriend for the day (ah, young love!) and Eloise just generally mingled, my social butterfly.As well as the quad biking Bethany and Eloise completed a little assault course in a playground on the camping site. Bethany kept falling off and needed holding up. Eloise wouldn't hold my hand and waltzed through it. It made me well up to watch Bethany struggle through. It reminded me of a time pre-transplant when she would have refused to even attempt it because it scared her. Actually, the fact that she struggled made me well up a bit more but in a good way. It reminded me that despite everything being more difficult for her, more of a struggle, harder work for the same or lesser results, she battles through because she it determined to be the same as her friends, not weaker ( I mean that in a physical sense, we've made it very clear to Bethany that everyone has something different about them and it's not a weakness to need a transplant or to stuggle to keep up with peers). She has such a fighting spirit. It's great for dealing with liver disease, transplant and all that goes along with it... it's not so great to have a child with such determination when she doesn't want to tidy up or go to bed! :)Eloise is my little spider, she can scale anything. What you can't see in this photo is that Bethany was at the other side, on the bottom rope, desperately hanging on. Eloise would have climbed as high as the clouds if the ropes had gone that high. She's the one who is going to have broken bones to boast about as she gets older! Thankfully we have none to boast about yet.Towards the end of the day everyone gathered together and all the children released a balloon in memory of the children who are no longer with us. It was such an emotional moment. I feel such an ache for those who have lost a child, it was hard not to cry - too hard. I thought of the precious children who have passed away from the Special Kids group and our precious liver children who are no longer with us. And after we watched the balloons float away in the sky I gave Bethany and Eloise the biggest hug ever. I am thankful every day for the organ donor who is allowing us to have these days together. I don't think about the future, it could be long and wonderful or it could all be taken away tomorrow. But no one can take away today. We have all of these wonderful memories to carry with us when our hearts feel heavy.

The Special Kids family day was wonderful. It couldn't have been better. We didn't mind the odd bits of rain. Even as we drove away we were looking forward to the 2010 event.We managed to fit in an impromptu day trip to the seaside. It slotted in on a day when I should have been getting lots of household jobs done and packing for our weekend away starting the next day. But you can't get these days back, right? So why not make a memory.

We collected Pops and set off to Scarborough (I thought of you Shirley but Bethany had a barking cough and we didn't want to give you any germs). We drove through the rain all the way there. Joy! But it cleared up as we arrived and apart from one rain shower when we ducked into an amusements for five minutes we stayed dry. When we arrived we ate lunch then the girls immediately headed for a donkey ride. My little baby is growing up, Eloise has always backed away from donkeys but this day she rode one quite happily. Thank goodness for friends. Instead of having to be assessed and wait months (or forever) to get a buggy from the NHS a wonderful friend loaned us her buggy. So when we take Bethany out and she gets tired she can have a rest without it spoiling the day. She is getting better in crowds but still needs to hide away to cope with them sometimes. The photo above shows one example of how she manages it. She gets in the buggy, hides away under her hood or hands and goes into her own world for a few minutes. It works wonderfully for her and stops her getting distressed. She really is on another planet for a few minutes, completely zoned out. When she decides to come back to our world she has a long daydream story to tell us about where she just went and she feels much better for it. Hooray for a child who has taught herself coping strategies. You might say that hiding away is not a coping strategy but I think it's a bloomin' good one. She's worked out what she needs to reduce her stress levels, it doesn't cause anyone else any harm and she feels better for it. Job done. The girls had a go on the trampolines and rides on the seafront and we wandered along looking in random shops before ending up at the top end of the south beach, by the lighthouse. We stopped for tea and made friends with some cheeky seagulls who decided our friendship was well worth it when they saw we had food. The girls were fascinated with watching them close up so gave them an incentive to stay by throwing the odd bit of cheese toastie towards them! As you can see from the photos, it lasted a while and we made a lot of feathered friends! After we had finished our food we stayed for a while, watching the seagulls, despite the 90 mph winds (ok, that might be a slight exaggeration, but only slight) then caught the open topped bus back to the end of the beach where our car was parked. Pops had the joy of sitting with the girls looking at the scenery on the top deck whilst I sat, all forlorn, on the bottom deck, trying to stop an overloaded pram from tipping up in a bus which was clearly not designed for buggies!

Tell me these are not the eyes of a supermodel? This is Danielle. Our latest outing which I am going to blog about today is our weekend away, staying with Danielle, Doug and Ethan. Ethan is Bethany's boyfriend - unless she's with one of her other boyfriends (shhhh, don't tell William)*. Bethany and Ethan have been giddy about meeting up since we planned it and counted the days down. Ah, young love again, isn't it marvellous. We set off for the long drive down after a dancing lesson on Friday night and I encouraged the girls to nap so that they could have a snack and play for a few minutes when we arrived. They did nap and the few minutes turned into a couple of hours because the kids were having good fun. Sadly, Tony missed all of the fun because he was working but we thought of him while we played!

I don't have any photos to show you of the weekend because I haven't edited them yet. But when I tell you that one evening there was a party with, ahem, a teeny bit of alcohol, then it might be safer to let you use your imagination.

We spent some of the first full day in a lovely park with ducks and deer. After tiring themselves out the kids had an ice cream - oh, hang on, that's right, we all had an ice cream. :) The ice cream must have done the trick because the kids played on the trampoline when we got back to the house. The party was that evening (happy birthday to Doug and Ethan). How come kids clothes attract stains? How come the more special the clothes the more obvious the stain? We took party dresses for the girls.... yes, you know what I'm going to say next. I didn't get them changed until two minutes before the party was due to start. Five minutes after that Bethany had a long milk stain down the front of her beautiful, wine (and milk) coloured dress. An hour later she was back in trousers and a t-shirt after adding several other various stains to the dress. Well, it was good while it lasted... for two minutes. *sigh* The girls normally go to bed at 7pm so this was a huge treat for them - to get to stay up and mingle! Bethany was in her element as she adopted other children as her friends. Eloise adopted one older girl and enjoyed being looked after until she finally fell asleep on me (Eloise, not the older girl!). She managed to sleep through two hours of the loudest karaoke I've ever heard in my life, curled up on my lap. Yet at home she wakes up in a sweat if a mouse coughs two streets away. Go figure!

On Sunday we all had a lie in, surprisingly! Eloise and I got up after Danielle, Doug and Ethan but Bethany didnt surface for another two hours, not until after 11am. Even when she was at her worst with lethargy she always got up in the morning so I guess she really needed the extra sleep that morning. We headed off to a park for an hour after lunch in pizza hut. Danielle and I now have stronger arms. Swings, swings, and more swings. "Push me Mummy." Argh!! By the time we left the park we all had different nicknames, kindly donated by Bethany. Danielle is now called Broccoli, I am Yorkshire Pudding (although Danielle gave me that name through squeals of laughter - yeah, thanks mate), Ethan is Crabby Patty (as in Spongebob), Eloise is Fish Finger and Bethany is... erm, oh I forget. Well whatever it was it was the most original.

We left later than intended with three children complaining that it, "Isn't that late," and headed for home - leaving one of the three children behind, of course. And, bless, the children were already pining for each other.

You may have noticed that I wrote 'frustration' in the title of this update. Well, there's always something isn't there. Bethany has to take an immunosuppressant drug twice a day. In order to make this up for her we have to wear latex gloves and a mask as it is such a dangerous drug. The specialist hospital do not want to provide them for us even though they say we need to use them as we do not live in that area. Our doctor can not provide the same gloves through no fault of her own, she's gone out of her way for us in the past and I know she would if she could. Somewhere in between all this is little us. Running round between people trying to get A to speak to B and get C to provide the gloves. It's amazing how much time this sort of thing takes up and there was a time when we spent a lot of our day doing this sort of thing. I'm very thankful that things are not as 'medical' as they used to be in our lives but it also makes an isolated incident seem more pronounced because it's not constant. The NHS is sometimes a wonderful thing and sometimes and incredibly frustrating thing where patients are left feeling guilty for needing supplies and made to run round between various places begging for what should be provided. Argh and double argh. We still haven't got the gloves and we've been asking for months. Watch this space because you are bound to see a happy dance (or should that be a weary dance) when we finally get it sorted out and someone gives us gloves.

*We have a friend who works at the mining museum who is like an adopted grandad for the girls. When we mentioned Bethany having a boyfriend he said he needed to see him to vet him and he also needs to see his bank account. So I think we might leave the last word to John on the boyfriend front...!

Monday, August 17, 2009

Precious Girly-Whirlies


Sundown Adventureland

As is often the case now I have been so busy that I haven't had chance to update my blog. And it's a shame because we've been having so much fun. When we were pre-transplant and were tied down so much by Bethany's liver disease I always thought I'd have more free time post transplant. So how come I haven't?! :)

Here are some photos of our day out with Danielle and Keri - plus hubbies and kids. We are three 'liver' families and it's wonderful to get chance to meet up face to face without being in hospital. We've been lucky to have several chances recently to meet up with families who we would normally only meet in hospital or online. We like to fit in as many days out as possible, meeting all over the country. We've been to Sundown Adventureland before, it's a tried and tested place, so we knew we would enjoy it.

Sunday, August 16, 2009

Thumbs Up!



Yesterday we went on an adventure to meet some wonderful people. Special Kids In The UK held an annual family day. Old and new friends gathered together. This was our first time at a SK family day and I don't mind admitting to being a little nervous - all those new faces to remember was nerve wracking enough! But I needn't have worried. We had a fabulous time, the girls made lots of new friends and enjoyed hours on a bouncy castle and bouncy slide, amongst other things.

I will update more about the day when I have edited my photos. For now I want to show you the video clip above. Bethany went on her first ever quad bike ride. She loved, loved, LOVED it and was lucky enough to get a 2nd go. Each child rode around for a couple of minutes with an adult holding a rope to the back of the bike which cut the power in case of emergency before being allowed to ride solo. Bethany was a bit too wobbly to let her ride on her own and she was sad because all the other kids got to ride without the rope attached after a couple of minutes. Then during the second time she was allowed to ride alone for the last minute. Oh my goodness, oh my goodness, oh my goodness! I thought she might burst with excitement and me with pride. Life is good.

Sunday, August 09, 2009

British Transplant Games and Great Friends

Day One



We set off to the British Transplant Games early afternoon on Thursday 30th July. I knew we were lucky to live only 2 - 3 hours away, some of our friends set off very early in the morning when I was still cosily dreaming! Mind you, I think the Coventry team had the best deal!


I was nervous about meeting new people and not feeling part of the team because we were spending some of the time in Coventry with friends, doing the tourist thing. As soon as we arrived we settled in and went to eat with the rest of the team. We found familiar faces and made friends with new faces. Everyone met up outside the hotel to walk to the opening ceremony a few streets away - everyone but us. You know there's always at least one child who needs to go to the toilet at that crucial time? Yup, that's right... mine X2. Argh. We found our way to the event by hot-footing it behind the team asking everyone we walked passed if they had seen a sea of red people go by. Gotta love those friendly Coventry types who all pointed us in the right direction offering a smile as a bonus. We found the team and a few stragglers well before the event started, thank goodness. MANY photos were taken - not just by me! - and the band started up. The various teams were lined up in groups and the procession stretched along the whole street. We could see the front people walking but it still took five minutes before we moved. I love the idea that the street was so packed with people celebrating life after transplant that the front set off a long time before the back. We had a bit of a caterpillar effect which seemed to amuse the children at the front of our group who took great pride in waving their flags.
We got to the main square where each team was being announced separately. They announced Leeds Little Livers and Bob Brolly, BBC Radio Coventry presenter, interviewed Bethany! She was so proud and I was gutted that I didn't have the camera ready. I bet you never thought you'd hear me say that!? He asked her, her name, her age and which organ she'd had transplanted. She didnt a great job representing the team, shouting out the answers clearly into the mircophone. *kicking myself very hard for not getting it on camera, very very hard.* She was beaming with pride as our group moved on. We were very lucky to be placed right in front of the stage so all the speeches were right in front of us. Bethany's legs were hurting and she was asking to be carried but we were packed in like sardines and it wasn't possible. So she sat at the front of the crowd for a few minutes with Eloise.
There was an entertainment group which were 'howl yourself silly' funny, doing a song and dance, representing a ficticious group entering the games (at least I hope they were ficticious!). That got everyone smiling and laughing.
Once the speeches were over the crowd slowly dispersed and made their way back to the various hotels. I found myself in awe of the crowd, of the scene that I had just witnessed. I didn't want the moment to end. It was amazing to think that Bethany (and the rest of us) we a part of that, that we were brought together with all those people through the miracle of transplant. The gift of life. We wandered around, willing the moment to last a bit longer. The girls had a look at the transplant bus as I chatted with a couple of staff manning an ambulance. They ran through the square, waving their flags behind them, enjoying the open space once the crowd had dispersed. We wandered back towards to hotel via a McD's as Bethany suddenly had an urge for ice cream. We suddenly picked up the pace so that we could get back before the ice cream melted - and we made it! Bethany and Eloise went to bed with smiley faces and ice cream tummy's. And I got a soggy ice cream after tucking them in!
Day Two

We started day two off with our team, all meeting outside the hotel to walk to the sports centre. This time I managed to get the girls toiletted and ready for the correct time! :) We walked in a huge group, Bethany holding the lead person's hand with Eloise and I following behind. Gosh the leaders walked fast! The team stretched out across Coventry centre, snaking it's way towards to sports centre. Bethany and Eloise were delighted to find we had been in this building before to attend a birthday party, what are the odds? So we walked through the building towards the sports hall saying, "Oooh, I remember this corridor... ooh, I remember those swimming baths, oooh, I remember this glass wall...." although they weren't as impressed when they realised there wasn't a party at the end of the corridor! lol. Our team sat together and I managed to fit in a chat with a couple of members from other teams that I know from elsewhere. It was lovely to feel like I knew several extra faces in the crowd and it helped to add to the atmosphere as, clearly, other people knew members of other teams too. It meant that when the kids competed we were screaming for everyone, not just our own kids, and everyone was genuinely happy for whoever won, enjoying the fun and solidarity.

Sadly, this seemed to escape Bethany. She got very upset and was in tears because her friend on our team didn't win. I tried explaining that the child she was talking about was grinning from ear to ear and was happy just to participate but Bethany was having none of it! So in the end we left a bit early to go meet some friends. Hooray, it meant we got to meet up with Sharon, Hannah and Caitlin that little bit sooner. Fancy having friends in the same place as the British Transplant Games, how lucky are we? Not only that but we have fabby friends who meet us in their car so we can follow them around and park in the right place! First of all we met up at the hotel and walked to our destination... Coventry Transport Museum. We had the pram because Bethany's legs were feeling tired and painful but she managed remarkably well. She did sit in the pram quite a bit but I indulged her because I knew we were in for several long days and didn't want her to overdo it.

All four girls loved the transport museum and had a blast. They all got to choose a little gift from the shop and we had lunch outside the museum because we were running so late we didn't have time to get home first. We sat outside and had several visits from wasps which did not impress the girls. But they had lots of fun running around on the 'clock' (anyone want to tell me the official name of it?) on the floor outside the museum. They followed the tracks on the floor, studied the steps, ran along the pathways and, not forgetting, studied pigeons!

By the time we set off home we were very tired and my feet were giving up for the day. We drove to Sharon's house and had some unpacking time, play time, pizza time and swapping presents time. The girl went to bed much later than is normal for them but, as predictably happens when you aren't at home, they took a long time to sleep. Argh!

Day Three

Today we were lucky enough to have a mini Liver Families meet up. Danielle and Justine met Sharon and I with all of the children at the Herbert Art Gallery. See how upmarket we get when we go to Coventry, eh?! The children played and entertained themselves (a lot of photography and art work went on) while the adults had a drink and a natter. Then we began touring the gallery in earnest! The children spent a long time playing with the generous choice of dress up outfits. Ethan became many different princes from various different lands and Bethany became several different princesses! We moved on to another area but I had to push Bethany along because she found a computer - she loves interactive stuff involving a computer. We found some building blocks in an open plan area then headed to a section full of sensory equipment and stickers. Can you get a better combination for kids?! We spent a long time in that room, completing sticker sheets and making a lot of noise with the instruments. Bethany found a touch screen which taught her about butterflies and she parked herself there while the others played instruments and ran around - another computer, you see!

Then to a room which had lots of craft items out on a table. Very trusting! The girls fixed themselves in front of the craft table and stuck various things to various other things and came away with 'things'! Hannah made beautiful butterflies, Robert spent time making a craft item with Justine and Stuart (I think the purpose of that was so he could blame them if it didn't work!) then they all explored various secret passages and hand puppets lying around. We only left because we had to eat. Justine & Co left at this point - well, if you will enter your cakes into competitions!

We found a little cafe across the road (thanks Sharon) and ate quickly in order to dash back to the gallery, but not before Ethan entertained us with his dancing. He's my future son-in-law according to Bethany and Ethan! We found time to explore one more room before Ethan & Co had to leave and we retired back to Sharon's house for tea. Once the girls went to bed I went to party with Sharon and Andy. And I'm afraid I will have to leave the rest to your imagination!

Day Four Sharon, did I tell you I love you? Ah, that's what friends are for. Sharon drove to the British Transplant Games event for us so that I didn't have to find the way on my own. Our plan for today was to go along to the track and field events, cheer on our team members then make our way home. But, as you'll see as you read on, we found the atmosphere pulling us in again and decided to stay a little longer - another night.

We sat at the top of the stands and made friends with another family. We'd never met the family before but it felt like we'd known each other for years and the girls instantly clicked with them. We were lucky that we accidentally positioned ourselves to see both the track and field events - the field events were in a different area behind the stands and only the top row of seats had vision on both sides. So we spent a lot of time craning out necks in both directions.

Bethany didn't forget the promise by Pudsey Bear's friend that she would get to have a photo with him today. I lost count of how many times she asked if he would be coming. The weather forcast was crummy but we got beautiful weather so bleaugh to the weatherman! We spent a lot of time cheering and standing up, looking for team members being pointed out to us. We sat with the team and ate lunch together, team bonding! THEN PUDSEY ARRIVED!! Pudsey races each year with the youngest children. I knew we had several children in that race. So we made our way down to the track to take photos of our team members, the little cuddly ones that you always want to take home! We cheered, we screamed, we took photos and once the race was over Bethany and Eloise made sure they got a photo with Pudsey. I was pleased to see that Pudsey's friend recognised Bethany and made sure he stopped for a photo opportunity before he moved on. It made Bethany's day.

While we were supporting our team one of our organisers mentioned that she had tickets available for the evening do, a gala dinner, and would we like to go. If she had asked me at the beginning of the event I would have probably said a polite no thanks, thinking I might be eager to get home by day four. But she asked me at the perfect time, while I was gripped by the event and totally emerged in the atmosphere. I can't explain to you the vibe that comes from looking round and knowing that all these people are touched by transplant and are all celebrating, everyone at different stages of recovery, celebrating different anniversaries and levels of health. Yet all tied together by one mass miracle. So you can see how it was impossible to decline the tickets! Long story short, (ha ha, I know, don't say it!), we also booked into the hotel for an extra night and called on our energy reserves to keep going.

The competitors made their way to the medal presentation and we followed on. Being one of the last ones there we couldn't see a thing so we headed over to the track, which was empty at this point as everyone was at the medal presentation, and Bethany decided to have a mock race. Bethany and Eloise headed off a few feet down the track and raced towards me *intermission, time out for the child who had a paddy because her little sister won the race, bit more time out, sit against a fence and calm down, head back to track* and then they had another go with big smiles on their faces. Bethany won. I suspect the race was fixed but I wasn't going to be the one to point it out!

Next we headed over to the field events which were in full swing with a lot of our little team members taking part. The ball throw was great, littlies from all the teams giving it their all, throwing the ball a few feet and everyone cheering them on like they had thrown it miles. It welled up, not for the first time in the day. We watched the medals presentation and cheered the kids on, once again. The Leeds Little Livers girls cleaned up, getting first, second and third. Way to go, reds (sorry, couldn't resist a tiny gloat for our team)! They all got to meet Angela Lonsdale who presented the medals and had a photo opportunity afterwards. You know me, shy and retiring when it comes to photos, bwahahaha. Still, I managed to get a pic of her with Bethany and Eloise. Then the Leeds Little Livers stood on the podium - the ones who hadn't gone back to the hotel already - and jiggled up and down making it impossible to get the classic photo of everyone looking in the same direction. As I stood there trying in vain to get that photo I marvelled at the energy of the kids in front of me, of the little miracles standing there grinning, squealing and having fun. And it made me wonder if their donors had any idea what a difference they would make one day by signing a little piece of card or registering online.

Back at the hotel (thanks Simon for getting me there without getting lost) I forced the girls to take a nap. Bethany got in bed without complaint and snuggled up, telling me that it felt strange to need a nap in the afternoon. Oh my goodness, what wonderful words. Pre-transplant she napped every day. Post transplant it feels odd enough to point it out. Marvellous, another teary moment! I rumaged through suitcases trying to find outfits that would be suitable for a gala that we didn't know we would be attending until an hour earlier. The girls were disappointed that I hadn't got dresses for them to wear but I think I managed a pretty fantastic outfit, given the one hour warning. I, on the other hand, was completely out of clothes and settled on a top that had been put out for washing. Yes folks, that smell was me! lol. Actually it was still clean and I was lucky that I had chosen to fold all of my dirty washing neatly (I don't know what possessed me!) so it came out looking ironed. What are the chances? Someone was definitely looking after me that day! We all met outside the hotel and went by bus to the gala event. The girls were very giddy and talked about the days events all the way there. As soon as we got there the girls were eager to get inside whilst others were still milling around outside as they wanted to check out our table. They found it straight away and settled in, choosing their seats and taking the opportunity to get some photos on their own cameras (start 'em young, I say!).

Several hundred photos later (and that was just us!) the event started. Bethany was exhausted at this point and I was having trouble keeping her happy and entertained so we had a bit of snuggle time after going for some fresh air. It was great to get to know the other team members around the table and we remarked how it was great to meet as friends at an event rather than as patients in the hospital. We talked about many and varied things, the kids played together (apart from the sleeping one, we let him off until he woke up!) and Bethany found a new energy when she realised there was a young girl at the table who was small enough to adopt and mother. There now follows a twenty minute break where I have nothing to tell you except that Bethany walked up and down, holding her new friend's hand, checking regularly that she was ok. This twenty minute break only stopped because the speeches started and everyone had to sit down. :)

The food arrived. Bethany and Eloise both turned their noses up at it (they don't do unfamiliar food) to which they were told that I expected them to try everything on their plates. And they did, hooray for peer pressure!

One of our younger team members, a friend from way before the transplant games, won a special award for best newcomer. Oh my goodness, here I am welling up again. I looked around, half of the nurses and ward staff were in tears! I'm welling up just writing this, each little (or huge) achievement means so much more when you know what these kids have been through, especially when you know personally. Honestly, I think I had red eyes most of the night!

Drum roll please... Pudsey Bear turned up during the speeches. Oh, oh, oh, Bethany's face. Pudsey was mobbed by children and the announcers had to keep asking them to let him through! Bethany didn't mob him, she waited near the stage so that she would be close to him when he got up there, smart cookie. Don't worry, she made sure she got a photo with him afterwards too! Everyone had a good ol' boogie at the end of the event, Bethany found a new energy reserve whilst Eloise started wilting. And then the buses arrived to take us back to the hotel. Exhausted. Happy. Content. Elated. Surrounded by miracles.

Day Five

Everybody seemed to get up early and head off home straight after breakfast. Being the smart cookie that I am (Bethany gets it from me, obviously!) I booked a very late breakfast because I knew the girls wouldn't cope with so many late nights. Sure enough I had to wake them up to go for breakfast after 9am.

We met up with some families in the dining area and all swapped details and hugs before heading out. Bethany and Eloise, extortioners that they are, conned James out of some money - obviously a gift to remember him by! James, if you are reading this, don't forget you are now officially JOHN, as named by Eloise!

Having had the extra, unexpected, night in the hotel we decided to use to day to the max before heading home. So we packed the car and headed for the transport museum again. There is a quiz that the children can do as they go around the museum. The girls had a new level of excitement about doing the quiz - could it be that they had done it only two days ago and knew where all the answers were? Hmmm, I wonder. They discovered new things that they missed the first time round, stopped for breaks and watched videos, had a ride in a simulator of the fastest land speed record vehicle (the Thrust or the Thrust 2, I forget which one) and generally enjoyed the familiarity. They ran around on the 'clock' outside and we found a beautiful garden to explore for a few minutes before we left. By the time we got back to the car they were both exhausted and contentedly slept for most of the way home - which was a relief to the driver who had never navigated that route home before, aka ME!

They haven't stopped talking about the Games since we got home. We are already excited about next year and planning what events Bethany wants to compete in. We can't wait to meet up with new friends, by which time they'll be friends from 'way back'!

What a wonderful five days. It sounds corny but I was humbled and shed tears of joy so much during those five days that I still feel the awe as I think about it.

And if no one signed up to the organ donor register this would have been another weekend of all those families mourning the loss of a loved one. Instead we got to be part of the miracle.